so get ready for a ramble today. :)

I am sitting down for the first time in what feels like days, possibly weeks (and it is late where I am).  I have actually been sitting down for a whole 20 minutes!  WOW!  And I haven't fallen asleep - now that is BIG!

So as I mentioned my life is crazy right now.  We are literally focused on the basics - shelter, food, warmth, etc.  You do not want to get any more basic than that.  Believe me :)

But I am smiling.  That is important me.  Life may throw what it wants at me but I want to smile.  I lost my smile many years ago for a time period and now I really value it.  Smiling is one of those things that I want to add to my life list - just under the basics I listed above.

So why the smile?  Well a couple of reasons.

I feel as if my life is turning around right now.  I have been living in limbo for 8 weeks now.  Scary, unknown limbo.  So what make me feel as if things are moving away from limbo? My husband has a major job interview tomorrow.  He has gone through the first 2 interviews and now he is being flown to their head office tomorrow.  This is good.  And for a job he will be really good at.  This would mean we can sleep at night again (well, maybe not in the double bed we are sharing right now!!!).  So fingers crossed on that front.  I know he will be amazing tomorrow so I have really great feeling about it.  This gives me something positive to focus on again - smile, smiles, smiles!  Send positive thoughts, please. :)

Next reason for a smile.

House hunting.  Holy man is that a horrible thing to do.  So why the smile?  Well, because I have a couple of really awesome leads.  We are planning to rent for a year as we get our lives stablized again and finding a rental has felt like finding a needle in a haystack.  We live near a really huge city (Toronto, Ontario, Canada) so you would think there would be tons of options with all the surrounding cities.  Well let me tell you - landlords are horrible in big cities. They just do not care. OK I know that is generalization but it is how I really feel after many, many days of seeing places (I literally spend all my days right now at appt for viewings).  I want a nice place. I really do not need a lot.  I grew up poor so I can do without a lot. I just want a space that we can live in.  I am not a fancy girl and know what is important in life.   I just want a place I feel safe and clean in.   Is that really too much to ask for?

But WOW - have I seen a lot in the last weeks!  And of course we are up against a deadline.  Oct 23rd actually.  So time is running out - we have had a few places that have been great but fallen through at the last minute (for various reasons) so there have been lots of ups and downs. 

But I digress.  I was telling you about the reason for my smile.  I have seen 3, yes, 3 places that would be great today!  I feel as it I hit the rental jackpot!  One is so close to our old lives - out in the country, with space for the kidlets to run and play that I want to spend hours daydreaming about it - silly smile plastered to my face of course!  Changing to city life has been a bit of a shock to us (I have a mental scrapbook page started about this phase of our live - called Changes - that lists all the differences we are experiencing right now).  By tomorrow at 7pm I hope to have a home for us.  More positive thoughts again, please.

And the other reason for a smile on my face?

Scrapbooking of course!  The other day Amy left me a comment here on the blog (I love reading these by the way).  She said that since I was so tired and felt it was too much to drag scrapbook supplies out from my tiny spot here at my mom's I should scrapbook digitally.  Sheer genious!  (Thank you so much Amy!)  Of course I need to drag nothing out but my laptop - and nothing to clean up after!

So for 15 minutes tonight I actually scrapbooked (this was the reason I didn't fall asleep on the couch before starting this blog entry).  Of course I am a paper girl through and through but digi sure is fun from time to time for me.

Here is what I made.

I know it is a terrible waste of space ;) but I just love this "paper" and the photos seemed to suit this format.

Here is a close up so you can actually see what I scrapped.

OH my they got the sillies something crazy this day!  I feel like I can still hear their giggles.

And the best thing (oh ya - another smile on my face) is eveything in this page is from this FREE kit!  Got to love free when your life is in a financial ruin!  ;)  (I did recolor a few things so maybe I need to put a tutorial of how to do that?? Let me know)

So lots of rambling (don't say I didn't warn you) and lots of smiles today.  I feel as if I can feel the edge of my life returning. :) 

But now I need to got to bed.  :)  5:30 am is awful early to get up to drop my hubby off at the airport.  So ta ta for now my cyber friends.  Be back soon with good new hopefully!

Remember - positive thoughts our way all day Fri - we need a job and a house!!